Gnarbage

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released June 3, 2016

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Track Name: Peter Frampton (From East Oakland)
I am nothing but these bones,
Now, will you please leave me alone?
After all of this, well, I should've known.
I was young and I was dumb,
and I was done and I was done.
Did you really think we were having fun?

Your fucking lies,
Well I despise,
These memories,
I wish they'd leave.
This wasn't what I wanted,
But I stay haunted.

Encompassing,
I want to scream.
Your presence it envelops me.
An afterthought, I hope you rot.
I hope you rot.

I am nothing but these bones,
Now, will you please leave me alone?
After all of this, well, I should've known.
What did you do to me?
You took from me. You took from me.
Now I'll never be anything.
Track Name: Booze Cruise
Though I can’t bare to see,
what you bred into me,
this existence is suffering,

I will always resent,
my choice to exist.
Tempted, I will resist,

I will fall,
short of it all.
You expect too much.
It's all too much.
Let me leave.
I can’t breathe.
Can’t you see?
I’m drowning.


I will fall,
short of it all.
You expect too much.
It's all too much.
Let me leave.
I can’t breathe.
Can’t you see?
That I am drowning.

This pain, it weighs my chest,
I sit and wonder, how long is an instant?
razor vertical this time,
I will not rewind.


I dream of brevity,
to find my ending,
to silence my head, I beg death.
Track Name: Nightmare On Oak Street
moments bitter, moments cold,
reminders we are all alone,
when all our parents drink too much
and all our lives are too fucked up,

we all watch good friends pass
and find that good things never last.

streets are bitter, concretes cold,
im searching for a place called home,
when rainclouds find me dark and grey,
im giving up on better days

suicide's the best escape,
it's dangerous to fuck with fate,
we compensate and drink too much,
and realize we are all fucked up.

try to cope as good friends pass,
accepting good things never last,
alone to brave the overcast.
Track Name: Waste Of Life
All I can see,
Breeds misery,
Even these dreams,
Silence suffocates, I scream.

Alone, above the raging sea,
I feel this aching heart envelop me.
I tempt till toes tip over the edge.
I am begging death.

There's comfort in crashing, instead.
Better than wishing I were dead.
Watching the fire burn low,
As this absent heart burns slow.


I fear my eyes will give me away.
And I fear that I'm not here to stay.
A terrible waste of a wonderful life.
Just waiting to die.

There's comfort in crashing, instead.
Better than wishing I were dead.
Watching the fire burn low,
As this absent heart burns slow.
I will sit, I am alone.
Only you could hold me home.
Knowing brevity hurts,
Losing you was worst.
I lost myself.
Track Name: Suicide Handbook
this epitaph is all I dream,
through all those nights spent without sleep,
this stagnant pace will never last,
the pain we hide within our pasts,
i wonder when these moments end,
content facade is my pretend,

wrists have watched scars heal with time,
each silver mark serves to remind..

You said shit would get better,
It only ever stays the same.
You said shit would get better,
Nothing good ever stays.
You said shit would get better,
All I have are bad days.
You said shit would get better,
All I have are bad days.
You said shit would get better,
All I have are bad days.
You said shit would get better,
All I have are bad days.
You said shit would get better,
All I have are bad days.
Track Name: Nick's Birthday Song
Anchors we weigh heavy at the bottom of the sea,
Mouths full of sand, salt water seeps,
Where is our reprive?
you drift we hold on tight.
you drift we hold on tight.
hold on tight

For us all there comes a time,
When we must realize.
dragged by the undertow.
this is our time to go.

and while I drink this beer,
my time will be spent here,
and this feels real to me,
Suffocate endlessly.
Though I rot and decay
you’re still here to stay.
you’ll be here to stay
wont you please stay?
Track Name: DIY Bungee Jumping
Who gives a fuck about this shitty home?
Your eyes find mine. suddenly, I’m not alone.

I can't, I can't, I cant breathe.
Each moment escapes me.

I cower in this fear, I run and hide,
I can't stop cutting to kill what's inside.

I can't, I can't, I cant breathe.
Each moment escapes me.

These vices cope, we are all alone,
This pain engulfs, I think I’ve found my home.
These brittle bones grow so tired and sore,
I’m begging you, show me what to live for.
Track Name: Dustin Appreciation Hour
Poison rides your eyes
you lay through sleepless nights
demons wont stay quiet
you beg for peace of mind.

welcome to the winter of our discontent,
you’re fading out now, you forfeit every moment,
though your demons sit heavy on your chest,
I’m begging you to stop feeding this distress.

Needle to your veins,
Just one more you say,
my heart fucking breaks,
I watch you melt away.

welcome to the winter of our discontent,
you’re fading out now, you forfeit every moment,

welcome to the winter of our discontent,
you’re fading out now, you forfeit every moment,
though your demons sit heavy on your chest,
I am here to pull you from abyss
Track Name: Mama, I Can Save Us Both
Wisp of the bullet whisked out of my life,
best we know, first to die,

Gaping holes in your chest,
I am full of regret.
this heavy heart needs no rest.
wasn’t your time to go.
I’ll never know this home,
Lost, I sit alone.

Avalanche shows precedence,
Look away until I can’t
shadowed by grief,
I won’t find sleep.
Packed my bags and I left home,
But my demons wont leave me alone.
Now where the fucks left to go?

Gaping holes in your chest,
I am full of regret.
heavy heart needs no rest.
Track Name: Party Stops
I am closed,
This heart has seen to many fires,
now it's frozen solid,
I'm cold enough,
Old enough to know that nothing good will ever stay,
Take,
This pain,
Nothing but these brittle bones,
Begging to be left alone,
I know,
If I am only broken,
What makes this worth hoping for?

~*~ so let me go ~*~

open roads,
Have always felt like home,
But how am I to know,
I had to leave,
While mama drowned each beautiful moment in whiskey,
Bottles, they hurt,
But the fire of your words will always burn me worst,
It's like the ocean waves,
A push and pull consistent,
but never meant to stay.
Track Name: Gnarbage
Narrowed halls are closing in,
These moments, they will never end,
Through doorways you walk inside,
The first to find her without life.

She and I, traced the same,
This mirror, it will bring you pain.
The haunted past you try and hide,
Is wearing on your tired eyes.

I, I have grown in this shadow, I am not enough,
While you still see her ghost, I will never know love.
I, I have grown in this shadow, I am not enough,
While you still see her ghost, I will never know love.

your ghosts persist, I am remiss,
My life’s my fault, nothing at all.
I am complacent,
and displacing,
problems that we hide,
Heavy anger clouds your mind,
While I have grown, nothing is fine,
I have grown, nothing is fine,
nothing is fine.

I, I have grown in this shadow, I am not enough,
While you still see her ghost, I will never know love.
I, I have grown in this shadow, I am not enough,
While you still see her ghost, I will never know love.